Misery Business.

Good morning darlings...

Today, I have decided to start fresh.  For the last year or so now, I have been reading the public blog belonging to the mother of my partner's daughter.  Many of you have been reading it too and have been getting just as nauseated from it as I have been.  The only reason I ever started reading it was to keep tabs on the well-being of a very special little girl - her progress and her life - since her mother has been withholding her from her father.  But my simple plan of just "checking in" turned into so much more as I read further into her writings.  It has managed to ruin my life and my attitude.  It has caused me to act out in response and maybe even say some things that I shouldn't have said.  The fact that I even played into the rants, ramblings and, pardon my French, the complete and utter bullshit of such a homicidal schizo-sociopath was one of the biggest mistakes I could have ever made.  While I'm glad I made myself aware of the person she is, I refuse to allow her to continue to ruin my life.  She has already ruined my partner's and his daughter's lives enough.  I will no longer support her exploitation of their lives and I will no longer allow her to exploit mine.  Today, I will no longer be reading her non-sense.  Well, I may check in once in a while to see if there is anything new on my partner's daughter.  But that is it.  I will no longer comment on her blogs.  I will no longer read so far into them that they break me down into tears.  I will use my energy, instead, to continue to help my partner in his not-so-easy quest to, once again, be united with his baby girl.  I will use my energy to remain the positive person I always was before she attempted to knock me down.  I will use my energy to be thankful for what I have and who I have.  Life is far too short to do otherwise. 

But, if any of you guys are interested in reading a blog chock full of whining, complaining, exploitative lies, bitching, homophobic agendas, homicidal plots and horrifying grammar, PLEASE, continue to read it.  LOL!!  Enjoy yourselves.

Until next time, kittens...

#stayclassy
#filthyneversleeps
#meow

Tonite.

This is going down in about 12 hours.  Milwaukee, LOOK OUT!!  One sexy posse is heading your way!!  HAPPY BACHELORETTE PARTY, STEPHY!!!  WOOOOOO!!!!!

Happy Saturday everyone.  Praying to still be standing tomorrow.  Excited for a nite with some of my favorite beauties.

Until next time, kittens...

#stayclassy
#filthyneversleeps
#meow

Thanksgiving.

"Maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we're thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we're thankful for the things we'll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate."


Above is one of my most favorite and cherished quotes of all time.  If I tried to put it into my own words, I would fail.  It is perfection.  Being human has to be the most difficult job in the entire universe.  But finding gratitude in each day regardless is spectacular.  To have gratitude even in sorrow, trials, hardships and adversity is essential.  Gratitude only expressed in times of happiness, success and laughter is obnoxiously selfish.

Challenge yourself each day.  Place in writing or say aloud one thing each day that you have gratitude towards.  Celebrate Thanksgiving each and every day.

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday yesterday.  Mine was filled with lots of family and lots of love and I hope each of you experienced the same.

Until next time, kittens...

#stayclassy
#filthyneversleeps
#meow

Apple Juice

Well, after being at home sick for the past two days, I'm back at work - sucking on Halls and sluggin' apple juice like there's no tomorrow.  Pay day will definately hurt next week.

Seeing as tomorrow is Thanksgiving, I would like to take a few moments just to say how grateful, thankful and blessed I am to have the most incredible family & friends in the entire world.  You guys make my heart beat and put the pep in my step.  In the last 7 years, our family has suffered some key losses.  So this Thanksgiving, I give thanks that even though they have gone before me, I was blessed enough to have traveled this road with them, if only for a brief time.  Auntie Jenny, Papa, Great Grandma and Gramps - I miss you all each day, I love you and thank you for blessing my life with yours.

So, I hope everyone has a blessed holiday tomorrow.  Soak in all of the love and memories you can, for you never know when you will no longer have the opportunity.

Happy eating and cheers to the crash diets to follow!

Until next time, kittens...

#stayclassy
#filthyneversleeps
#meow

Sicky Pants

So, late Friday nite I began getting sick. It is just getting progressively worse now and I feel like such shit. Phlegm, cough, sore throat, achy...YUCK!! I hope this all will subside soon. I feel so gross. At least The Pack pulled it off today, right? 

Currently, I'm curled up in bed watching Sunny reruns.

I will give an update tomorrow. 

Until next time, kittens...

#stayclassy
#filthyneversleeps
#meow

SHAKING.

I'm having actual physical issues typing this blog today.  My hands are shaking - you'd think I was standing outside in subzero temperatures right now.  I feel like I'm about to vomit.  That is not an exaggeration either.  If you're wondering why I feel this way, let me give you a taste...

My partner has a 13-year-old daughter.  While she is extremely bright and beautiful, she has had to deal with a lot of turmoil in her young life.  Sadly, her mother is a huge culprit to said turmoil.  Most of you reading this know me quite well.  You know that I try to see the good in all things and in all people.  With this woman, however, I simply just cannot.  In fact, I truly believe that her name should appear beside the Merriam-Webster definitions of evil, psychotic and sociopath.  This woman, or lack thereof, has a public blog.  On this blog, she has managed to create erroneous accusations against my partner, his family and myself - accusations that destroy character and destroy lives.  She has even gone so far as to describe, in detail, how she has fantasized murdering both my partner and his mother and how she'd dispose of my partner's remains.  Today, she managed to sink herself even further by saying that she prays (yes, PRAYS) for me to get sexually violated and taken advantage of by my partner and get pregnant with a daughter, only to have that child raped in the future.

I'm sorry and forgive me if I'm wrong here, but does this sound like a sane person to ANY of you?  How a court could grant sole custody and control of any child's well being to a person like this is beyond me.  Not only do I fear for my own sanity, the sanity of my partner and his family and their personal safety, I fear the most for my partner's daughter.  The brainwashing and emotional and physical pain that little girl has endured and must endure from her own mother is sickening.

Yes, while my partner may have made some mistakes in his past, I stand behind him 100%.  He is a GOOD, LOVING, LOYAL & DEVOTED father.  It shows in how much his children adore him.  He gushes about them every chance he gets and misses them dearly.  I would do ANYTHING to change the circumstances right now.  But sadly, certain people are simply disgusting, vindictive and all-around liars.
I guess I'm just at a loss of words now.  I am completely numb.  Where do I go from here?

I have MANY friends who are single parents.  Sometimes, relationships and marriages just don't work out.  But, at the end of the day, it's about your children!  It's NOT about past petty bullshit and issues you personally have with that other person.  It's about co-parenting the best way you know how for the good of the child/children.  It's about giving them the best life possible and the best definition of family.  Evidently, some people just don't get that and would rather take on the notion of being selfish instead.  While you are stuck trying to hurt the other parent in spite and it's working, you are hurting your child more.  You are also insulting your child!  Are you kidding me!?!

I really have nothing more to say right now.  To go into the entire story behind this subject would be out of line and inappropriate, so I refuse to.  I will not exploit my partner or his daughter any more than her mother already has.

Feel free to share your thoughts.  I just wanted to share with you a day in my life.  Cute, right?

And to the abundant words of advice and support I've already gotten on this subject via my Facebook homies...THANK YOU.  I hope none of you ever have to deal with anyone or anything remotely like this.  I wish this upon no one.  She has managed to make our lives a living hell.

God bless all ya'll.

Until next time, kittens....

#stayclassy
#filthyneversleeps
#meow

Purple Nurples

After an amazing weekend full of lots of fun and lots of love, I begin this new week not only freezing to my bones, but by starting to feel sick as well.  This last year, I have barely gotten sick at all!  Usually, I'm ill with sinus infections, the flu, pneumonia and strep a few times a year.  My man must be sharing all of his strong immunities with me - and I'll take 'em!!

Hopefully, my fog will lift soon and I'll be healthy for the upcoming holidays.  My Ama even called me this morning to ask if my partner and I will help set up her big tree this week.  Oh boy...

Hope ya'll have a good day and hopefully my next 6.5 hours of work will fly by fast.  I want to go back to sleep.  I want to crawl into my bed and not move for a day and a half.

Barf.

Until next time, kittens...





#stayclassy
#filthyneversleeps

Just in case you were wondering about my life from age 18-22...

"Make it look like your skin is not so angry at you for your bad life choices."

Beer pong anyone?  Kick it 2000's style...



merrrrrrrrrp.

THIS.

We were meant to be best friends.  Clearly.

Anchor Deep

Today would have been the 60th birthday of my partner's father.  He passed away almost 9 years ago.  There was a mass held in his honor this morning at his family's church.  I took the opportunity to go to mass with his mother and sister.  Even though I had never met his father, it is very evident that my partner is much like him in many ways - so it is almost like I do know him in some strange, small way.  Not only that, it was important to me to show my love and support to a man and a family who loves me so very much.  As my partner and I were discussing the mass this morning before I left, he was questioning how, by going to mass, his mother feels more of a connection to his father and how she has increased her fellowship within the church since his passing.  It was a valid question, but it was also a simple answer:  COPING.

Everyone experiences grief and pain, and everyone deals with their grief and pain in their own way.  It's called COPING.  Each person has their own specific coping mechanisms to process and deal with their past and their present, in hopes that it may heal their future.  Solace, even if only for a moment, is found in countless ways - some good and some bad.  Many, like my partner's mother, find solace in The Lord and in prayer.  They cope by connecting deeper with The Spirit and exercising their faith.  After all, The Lord asks us to ( 1 Peter 5:7 - NIV).

But so often people ask, "Why pray to someone you can't even see; to someone/something that is not tangible; to someone who won't answer back?"  On paper, all of these points have merit.  However, and I speak for all Christians, we have faith:  faith that our Lord hears us, faith that our Lord will respond to our prayers in His own time and in His own way to the good of His plan for our lives, faith that our Lord keeps His promises, faith that He has brought our loved ones' souls to Him in Heaven and that one day, he will join our souls with them again someday.

PRAYER IS POWERFUL.  PRAYER WORKS.  Try it sometime, regardless if you are Christian or not.  Seriously.  Ask The Lord for some guidance in your life.  If you are expecting an immediate answer, don't hold your breath.  He will show you His answer in His own way and at a time that will best suit you and the loved ones around you.  His answers may come in weird ways.  His answers may not be the answers you wanted to get.  But, regardless, they are answers and they are for our own good.

Growing up in the church, as I'm sure many of you have as well, we were taught a very special song from a very young age.  It is called, "What A Friend We Have In Jesus".  It is one of those songs I will remember for the rest of my life and how true it is!  Sometimes, when I'm in a rut, it just pops into my head.  Funny how the brain works, right?  No matter where I am in this life or what my problem is or even in times to rejoice, I always have a friend who I can go to.  For me, for many and for my partner's mother, that is an awesome feeling and a feeling we can always take comfort in.  What a special way to cope.

ANCHOR DEEP; PRAY HARD.  Those were wise words that were spoken to me in my sophomore year in high school during my religion class by Rev. John Moldenhauer.  Those words have never left my mind in ten years.  They will continue to make up my foundation and I hope that you may strengthen yours with those words as well.

Until next time kittens...

The First One

Well, if you haven't figured it out by now, I'm Megan and this is my blog.  It is a public forum for to speak my innermost feelings onto the interwebz and I will treat it as such.

If you already know me and/or are in my life, congratulations and you're welcome.  If not, well, then let me give you a brief rundown:

• I'm 26 from Wiscompton
• I'm awesome
• Loyalty, honesty and integrity are my strong suits
• I am happily divorced and I'm madly in love with a pretty great dude who just so happens to be my soulmate, so back off
• I'd drop the world for my family and my friends in a heartbeat
• I HATE ignorant people
• I'm adopted
• My life has changed immensely in the last year and I couldn't be more grateful
• Bad grammar, different foods touching on my plate and backwards toilet paper rolls are my major pet peeves and irritate me to no end - (also, don't call me at home and ask me if I'm at home because I'll tear out your throat)
• Music is my serenity
• I'm a Third Party, pro-life, pro-Cannabis, LGBT supporting, pro-Concealed Carry, pro-government shrinkage Christian and proud of it
• I have the most beautiful, incredible and talented friends and family in the whole wide world - FACT
• Bears
• Beets
• Battlestar Galactica

That about sums it up.  I look forward to lively and intelligent discussions with you all regarding my future blog entries.

Until then...stay classy.

#filthyneversleeps

Love, Megan

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