Belated.

Hello monsters.

It's been a pretty busy last few weeks here.  Lots happening and lots to talk about...

First, MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY HANUKKAH!!  I hope y'all enjoyed your holiday as much as I did.  The few days off of work was much needed and much deserved.  I got some pretty cool stuff:  a brand new North Face from my folks, my Clay Matthews jersey (finally!!!), a whole mess of gift cards, some money, a pair of of Swarovski angel wings from my grandma, some new jeans and some new moccs...and that's just a short list.  The two most special things I got though were from my partner and his sister, brother-in-law and nephews.  His sister and her family got us our very first Christmas tree ornament!  It's too cute (see upper left picture).  I need a new one every year now!!!  My partner made me a heart shaped engraved jewelry box (see picture to the right).  I actually cried.  I was so moved.  I love him so very much.  But, HANDS DOWN, the best gift I got this year was lots of time and fun memories with the love of my life and my amazing, wonderful family.  I'm so truly blessed.  Thank you for sending us your son, Lord.  Thank you for your countless blessings!!  (**We also found out that my partner, myself and the entire Heidel/Miller/Semmann/Harte clan will be taking our holiday festivities down to Playa del Carmen in the Riviera Maya in 2013!!  WOOWOOOO!!!!  Just the motivation I need to stay on track and get my ass in shape!!)

Second, I need to address a few things regarding the tragedy that occurred in Newtown, CT nearly two weeks ago.  First and foremost, my heart, my thoughts and my prayers continue to be with the victims, their families, friends and loved ones, the survivors of Sandy Hook Elementary School and the first responders.  My heart aches and bleeds for them; my eyes have shed countless tears.  There are many political agendas that have and will continue to arise in wake of this senseless massacre and I will not get into those now.  I can and will discuss those P.O.V.'s at a different time.  However, I will address the media and how furious and disgusted I am with how they handled the entire coverage of the situation.  Granted that when things like this happen, they are extremely fluid situations in the days, weeks and even months to follow.  Lots of information is transferred and received from countless sources, and, truly, the media is a supply and demand business.  BUT when you are giving out such incorrect and inaccurate information to the general public (i.e. releasing the name, residence and photo of an innocent person that you claim to be the perpetrator without ANY appropriate law enforcement confirmation), that IS NOT okay.  1st Amendment rights my ass!  Not only did they disclose information and bring accusations about an innocent person, they did it to the brother of the actual guilty party!  So not only has his reputation and privacy been violated and exploited, he has to live with such a weight that his own blood shed the blood of so many children and women, including his mother and himself!  I truly hope that young man files a lawsuit because that was totally out of line.  Also, this interviewing of children.  Really?  I mean, REALLY?  I'm sorry but I'm so sickened that the media and the parents of these children put these traumatized little ones in that position - to recall something they should have never gone through in the first place.  ANYTHING for a story, a bottom line and a little limelight, I suppose.  Ugh...it's enough to make me gag.  There's so much about this horrific tragedy that makes me cringe.  But for now, I want to continue to focus on the lives of these precious, innocent children and the brave women that paid the price so that their memory will live on forever.  We will NEVER forget.

Third, my prayers and condolences with the family of Jennifer Sebena, the Wauwatosa Police Officer that was gunned down in the early morning of Christmas Eve.  Sadly, it has come to show today that police have taken her husband into custody and charged him with 1st degree intentional homicide.  The local media hasn't released a ton of information about him, only that he was a Marine, that he served two tours in Iraq and that he was wounded during his second.  Time will tell his motive or maybe if this could be a result of serious PTSD.  Who knows.  All I know is that something has to be truly wrong with a human being and their psyche in order to commit such violence against a woman or a child.  We are seeing too much of this in 2012.  I hope and pray that everyone add more patience, kindness, respect, empathy and love to their 2013 New Years Resolutions.  It would make the world a much better and a more peaceful place to be.

This weekend should be an exciting one!!  My dear friend/cousin/sister from a different womb and her fiance are tying the knot on Saturday and it's going to be one hell of a party!!!  I can't wait!  Then a few days of R&R for me and my partner will follow.  I'm currently trying to sneak a few extra days off so we can possibly get away for a little bit.  LOL!!  Wish me luck...

Well, if I don't get back on this thang before the 31st, I wish you all the very best of life in 2013.  I wish you all happiness, health, love, patience, understanding, security and multitudes of blessings from above.  Be safe and responsible and have a hella good time if you are planning on celebrating!!  LOTS of parties and fun stuff going down, so maybe I'll see many of you out and about in the MKE area.  If not, all of my love to you in the new year.

Until next time, kittens...

#stayclassy
#filthyneversleeps
#meow

LOL!!!  HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!

The Fine Print.

Hello nuggets...

As many of you are well aware, I have struggled with anorexia, bulimia, BDD & BED for over 13 years now (over half of my life).  I am a strong activist and supporter of NEDA, OA, ABA and eating disorder awareness, prevention and treatment.  While I have now been purge free for just over a year (hooray for me!!), the illness I have suffered and the choices I have made affect my everyday health and will continue to effect my health in the long term.  When you're in the disease, there are a lot of symptoms and consequences that you become oblivious to or block out completely due to the dysmorphia and denial.  From hair loss to odd hair growth; to kidney/liver/pancreatic/cardiac malfunction, abnormality and infection; to hypokalemia; to esophageal deterioration and distress; to bladder incapacity; to constipation; to hypothalamic dysfunction; to low blood pressure; to acid reflux; to osteopenia; to memory loss; to secondary amenorrhoea and menorrhagia; to muscle atrophy; to sleep and conscious apnea; to pigment loss; to severe chronic and acute dehydration - I've had to suffer through and see it all and still, sadly, have to continue to struggle with almost all of these things probably for the rest of my life.  Some things have gotten better.  Fortunately, I'm still alive and I still have all of my teeth in tact and in pretty tip top shape (most ED afflicted aren't as lucky).  Those are many of the physical ailments I have endured.  I haven't even touched the psychological and social aspects (drug addiction, isolation, suicidal ambition - all of which I have successfully conquered).  I still, however, deal with depression, anxiety, "ED Head", etc.

I wish I could go back to "middle school Megan" and tell/show her the future shitstorm that would ensue.  I would show her even the dumb little things that NO ONE would ever consider.  I would show her that because of my actions, days like today, it takes me HOURS just to warm up after only standing outside for five minutes.  How dumb does that sound?  Would ANYONE ever think of such things being a future consequence to their choices?  There should be fine print for eating disorders and it should have come to me all those years ago. 

Until next time, kittens...

#stayclassy
#flithyneversleeps
#meow

Jackpot.

Hello homiez.  Sorry it's been a while.  I've had a busy and exciting past few days!  To those of you who are my FB pals, this blog will probably sound like a broken record so if you choose not to read this, I will not be offended in the least.  But guess who put $20 into a quarter slot machine at Potowonami, got down to $1.75 and ended up walking away $760 richer?  Oh yeah...THAT WOULD BE ME!!!!  You guys, I can't describe that feeling.  Yeah, sure...it wasn't a million dollars.  But really, who's going to complain about earning an extra $760 sitting on a chair for 10-15 minutes?  I sure as hell ain't!  I would like to think it was all karma from not winning the Power Ball last week like I was supposed to.  LOL!!  But no, really...it was quite incredible.  I immediately cashed out and ran (yes, almost a full sprint) over to my partner and his cousin who were at another table playing a card game.  We all took a double take at that ticket!!  When my partner said, "Way to go, babe.  I'm proud of you", that's when it became real.  That's the moment I realized I wasn't seeing things.  But walking around a casino at 3am surrounded by mostly weirdos with that much loot in your clutch is quite flustering.  I have never wanted to get out of a place faster in my entire life.  LOL!!  This money came at a VERY good time for my partner and myself.  We had both just gotten paid on Friday from work and we both had several things we needed to pay off.  I took all my winnings (except for a little cash I left out for myself) to the bank right away that morning.  Most of all, I'm excited to have more than enough money to be able to buy Christmas gifts for the people I love.  There is nothing I love more than watching the people I love most open a gift I put all of my thought and heart into and watching the looks on their faces.  For me, giving is WAY better than receiving.  I've always felt that way.  But now the challenge is what the hell to get everyone!  The people God has placed in my life, I swear, are the hardest people in the entire world to shop for!  Hahahaha!!!  I try to be creative whenever possible, but sometimes that is a challenge too.  But we shall see.  I will begin my gift research today.

And a very happy 5th birthday to a very special little man this past Friday.  Your Daddy and I love you and miss you very much.

Until next time, kittens...
#stayclassy
#filthyneversleeps
#meow